Understanding When It's Just Not For You

Should everything in life be like pulling teeth

Always at odds

A river that can not flow

A bird that does not arise to sing

An ocean of tears

Thoughts that will not leave the mind

Holding grudges that will not loosen from your grip

Deep inside loving something so much that you know in fact you are holding on too tightly

So you let it breathe

You let it be and realize……

Maybe just the way it is should be just fine for them

And just the way you are should be just fine for you

That someone somewhere will love you both as is

That it doesn’t have to be a fight to love each other

That no one has to continue to work so hard to wish bad on you

That no one has to make up lies to make sure you never are together

Because they see its not working

So we no longer have to complain

Till we no longer have someone to complain to

We no longer have to be angry

We can say we gave it all that we had

We can say we loved and we lost

We can be okay knowing the battle is too long to keep on going

We can release it all into the wind and let it blow out of sight like a bouquet of beautiful balloons

Yes I thought this was forever

But when the mistakes and breaks out weight the fun and laughter

What then??????

When your tears have dried into the depths of your skin

Where now?????

When you question yourself until your head aches and your stomach turns

How do you mend such a mess???????

You walk away like a dog with the tail tucked between it’s legs

You recognize your defeat and understand that this time you lost

and its okay

Because truth is better than a lie on any given day.

-Lexluniverse

Written August 1, 2017

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